Its Complicated, or Ogres have Layers Like Onions.

Things have been really complicated lately.  And, by lately I mean the last 3 or 5 years. 

I have also been going to an acupuncture/oriental medicine clinic for the last year or year and a half.  I go once a month.  I started out going because I had an injury to my neck, left shoulder, and left wrist.  Not from one injury but several, and I was in chronic pain because of it and had very limited range of motion and that was making me nuts.  Over time, we have pulled back the layers to correcting several other issues that have cropped up.  My kidneys are kind of weak (not something new to me, I have known that my whole life but conventional medical doctors have only addressed the issue when I had an infection)  We have worked also on my left knee in particular, but both knees in general.  We have identified that my back hurts as a result of the neck injury and continue to treat that, plus have been working on some weight loss. 

This last Friday, however, was strangely different. 

I have known that the stress was building up to astronomical levels as I had what is pretty rare for me earlier in the week, a full fledged melt down.  This caused what it normally does, people to walk on egg shells around me.  I did what I normally did and just pulled it back under control and went back to trying to figure out how to make it all work. 

Then I went in for my appointment.  Normal stuff,  I was battling a kidney infection that I had on the run from my own holistic treatment but it was not gone yet so we discussed that and started treatment.  Needles placed and I was left to rest.  That is when I realized that my eyes were "leaking" and I really couldn't quit.  Breathing deeply, with the intent of stopping crying, I just kept right on. 

That was a reaction that I had never had before. 


I just keep asking myself if I feel better now,  not sure, but maybe.  Wonder what will happen next month